It's official, i have been trying to conceive for nine months now. I find this hard to believe but I have no choice but to accept it. Over the last nine months, I have had many moments where I thought "this could be it" - you know, the moment where you grab a pregnancy test, hope for the best and imagine the outcome that you really want. How will you tell your partner? How will you feel? We've all been there, unfortunately. That's why you are visiting my blog.
Since I am currently on cycle day two of my ninth cycle, I will not focus on the past. Instead I will write only about what I am hopeful for this month and go from there.
If you are a returning loyal reader, you know that I often mention my online support group that I am in, well this week one of the administrators told me a simple and amazing mirror message that I will be using for the entire month (and longer if I must). The mirror message is simply;
I WILL GET PREGNANT
I mean, it doesn't sound so hard, right?
I plan on saying this every day, afternoon, night, etc until I am in fact pregnant. We do plan on using OPKs again this month. They did not stress me out like I thought they would so I'll give it another shot. We are also going to be using Pre-Seed for the second month but I will be making one change. This month I will be inserting the applicator of Pre-Seed 15 minutes prior to sex. I thought i knew how lube worked but apparently this special lube has directions that I didn't read. Another amazing thing that I learned from my group!
I also went to Publix and bought POMS (pomegranate juice) and a fresh pineapple for my husband and I to snack on. He will also be cutting out caffeine, which I don't think he is too excited about but it will be worth it in the end, baby!
Another project that I am working on is starting a podcast version of this blog. I announced this on Instagram last week and honestly, the response was amazing. I'm so inspired but so nervous. I'm a working woman, trying to conceive, hosting a blog, I host another podcast as a hobby, and so starting another project makes me nervous. I am also still anonymous on this blog because I don't want my friends and family to know what we are struggling with - we don't feel like it's time to tell them. We have only been trying for nine months and we understand that it is completely "normal" for this to take a year or more. Even for healthy couples. i'm comfortable sharing with all of you readers because you're experiencing the same thing. I just don't think I am ready to tell everyone else just yet. Please subscribe to Dreaming of Diapers & Dimples for updates on the podcast and for notifications of new blog posts! Last week was a huge week for subscribers and it meant so much to me. I love all of your support!